OOC - Fanfic Meme - Day 4

4 – Do you have a "muse" character, that speaks to you more than others, or that tries to push their way in, even when the fic isn't about them? Who are they, and why did that character became your muse?

Let’s talk about my boys. I’m not sure who owns who. My Muses are more than a bit cat like. They want attention. They want control, and it’s really just easier to let them have it. I also let them each have their own LJs. It seems to help keep the peace if they have their own space, and since I tend to RP them as well that's a requirement.

In the Buffy fandom I was writing a bit here and there for Faith or Giles, and then there was Caleb firsts_chosen_1. Caleb was the chosen one of the First Evil at the very end of Season 7. Nathan Fillion got my total attention with the incredibly evil son of a bitch. I loved Caleb before I let myself care about Mal since Firefly had already been canceled, and I hadn’t been bitten by the Browncoat Virus yet.

I had so much fun exploring what made Caleb who he was. I joined joss100, and I completed all 100 prompts in a 4 year period. I RP’d him a lot too, although most comms freaked out a bit at how evil he truly was. He’s retired now, but once in awhile he’ll still pester me for a drabble or crossover.

Mal cptmalreynolds was a muse for a couple of years. He was so much more complicated than anyone knew. We only had 14 episodes of Firefly and then Serenity, and I wanted to know more about him. His lazy drawl and moral convictions led to some pretty good fic. I’m only bummed that I never got to really RP him. Any game we ever joined or created died, although he did have a lot of fun with a Kara Thrace a long time ago in a galaxy far, far away.

And then there’s Sylar thewatchmaker. He devoured me. He devoured all the other little minor muses that were in my head. Even now when a new character inspires me they have to fight against the Watchmaker. I’ve written more fic for him than any other character. I’ve been RPing him for almost 4 years straight too in one game or another, and for the past two on my own rp_shadesofgray.

I adore his complexity and his intelligence. I love exploring the shades of gray in his soul, and how he’s not completely evil. Somewhere inside of him, Gabriel Gray still exists, and studying Gabriel has been a frequently painful experience. I’ve had quite a few people ask me why Gabriel never gets happy fics, and I think that’s just the way it is. His life pretty much sucked ass. I write for Sylar and Gabriel Gray gabrielisgray, and they are so different that they each get their own LJ.

Peter Petrelli italianeaglesct was never supposed to be in my head. He’s a good guy. He will die to protect other people, and you have to admit that’s quite a bit different than my other boys. Mal will die for you, but he’s got to care about you and your cause. Peter doesn’t seem to be that selective.

It took until season 4 Peter to get to me. Before that he was too much the happy puppy, and it took Nathan’s death to make him into a character with enough balls to interest me. I suppose that’s why I also take a turn at writing and RPing Future Peter tarnishedhero, because that boy is totally fucked up.

I'd love to list Spock iam_spock and Castiel thursdaysangel, but they are fickle bastards.

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