thewatchmaker ◾ From Twitter 02-17-2010 (Reply)

Why yes. I'm fine thanks for asking. *glares*
@Hideaway_Addams @evenbepresident I'm fucking fabulous. Couldn't be better.
@Hideaway_Addams I've been meaning to ask, what makes you special?
@evenbepresident Turning over an old leaf.
@Hideaway_Addams I mean are you special?
@Hideaway_Addams Then we don't have a problem.
@evenbepresident "Being human is highly overrated. It's nothing but pain."
@evenbepresident "I keep forgetting. You'd think I'd have learned my lesson by now. Fuck feelings. Fuck caring."
@evenbepresident I'm the one that's not worth anything. They are everything and more. "Yeah fuck 'em. Lone wolf time."
@calowder Scream at the contractors who are taking too long to fix my shop.
@evenbepresident I miss being where he is. When nothing mattered but feeding the hunger. When did I start to need other people? What or who-
@evenbepresident did this to me. I was a predator. Now I'm pathetic. Angela. This is her fault. She offered me her tainted affection. "So-
@evenbepresident here we are again, plotting murder."
@emtpetrelli Twitterwhore
@evenbepresident "It's Ash Wednesday, I think I'll give up compassion for Lent."
@Beshter @kittenspawn @beckyb731 Worship the land of the Mouse. You can ask me too.
@ZQuintoSsential Gargle warm salt water.
@evenbepresident "I think it'd take Christ himself to make me pick it back up." I'm tired of being hurt.
@evenbepresident I send him back a foot with my TK. "No touching. That's a good way to lose a body part with the mood I'm in."
I should call one of them, but I can't. Call them so they can ignore me, or worse yet scream at me some more. Why can't I let it go?
Fox Mulder and I finish our little talk http://tinyurl.com/ykfbblm RP Curiosity Kills.
@stillgraylikeme txt I know you need time. But I miss you.
Is anyone else getting weird emails from LJ about payments?
@DarkAngel_V Hey V darlin'.
@Hideaway_Addams I've had a paid account for 3 years.
@stillgraylikeme Why do they always sound pissy about regeneration? Am I supposed to let them die? txt I'm afraid, you're never going to-
@stillgraylikeme to forgive me.
@stillgraylikeme txt OK. That's good to know. I love you.
@stillgraylikeme txt Ouch again. If you want to talk, I'll be around. Not going to lose it.
@stillgraylikeme txt I love you both. I was with 2 people when you met me, Gabriel, remember?
@stillgraylikeme It was great until Claire turned into a sniveling, jealous, bitch. txt Point to you again, Gabe. You win.
@stillgraylikeme txt Why can't we have it all? What's wrong with that?
@stillgraylikeme txt He's not the same Peter who hurt you, or the Peter who betrayed me. He's lost. He's broken. Like we are. Hell in a -
@stillgraylikeme few days, I'm sure you'll be ganging up against me.
Since I've been told I'm a selfish prick - I Want It All by Queen on @Grooveshark: http://tinysong.com/711r #nowplaying
@stillgraylikeme txt Far from it. I don't think this will be over for a very long time. No one holds a grudge like Gabriel Gray.
@stillgraylikeme His ringtone makes me smile. It's something, and right now I'll cling to anything I can get. "Hi."
@stillgraylikeme "I kind of meant both of us. I hold them too. It's good to hear your voice." God I want to hold you so bad it hurts. "Can-
@stillgraylikeme I do anything for you besides drop dead?"
@SArmypez Oh I like that.
@FutureBoyScout STFU
@FutureBoyScout One phone call down, one to go. I don't know if he'll answer, or if I'll get voice mall. I don't care. I need to try. "Hey.-
@FutureBoyScout I know I'm not your favorite person right now. Not mine either. But I had to check on you. Hear your voice." Love you.
Nailed this one. http://thewatchmaker.livejournal.com/152569.html I am crazy. Who knew?
@FutureBoyScout I've been watching my fucking phone like it's a serpent. I'm afraid to turn away, because I might miss one of them calling.-
@FutureBoyScout When it rings, I grab it fast, nearly dropping it in my panic. "Peter." Don't sound desperate. "Hi."
@FutureBoyScout "I needed to hear your voice." Good boy, Sylar. Tell the truth. Tell it when he can't tell you're not lying. "Are you OK?"
@FutureBoyScout "No you shouldn't be." I rake my fingers through my hair and pace across the penthouse. I had to be home. Had to be. "Sorry-
@FutureBoyScout I won't call again."
RT @NerdAlert007: Every now and then, I get a bitter taste in my mouth when I remember they canceled Firefly. | #firefly #whedon
@FutureBoyScout "I've never hurt so much in my life. I've hurt the two people I love most. They hate me, so I'm fucked up. But that's not-
@FutureBoyScout your problem. It's mine." I almost hang up. I should hang up. "Take care of yourself." Then I do hang up.
I have never been more miserable in my life. Never fucked up more either. I wish I could die.
@CrazyEmmy25 Is it made with arsenic?
@GrayInside I feel Gabriel, and I race to the door. I'm about to throw my arms around him when I realize it's not @stillgraylike me. -
@GrayInside "What do you want?"
@Hideaway_Addams Not so much.
@GrayInside "What the hell are you talking about? Christ you are insane." I put my hand in the middle of his chest and push him against the-
@GrayInside wall. "I lost so much time trying to save you. Trying to keep you from being like me, but what the hell for? You already are."
@CrazyEmmy25 Yes I'd like half a dozen arsenic laced cookies and a Draino chaser.
@FutureBoyScout I'm on the roof. Looking at the city. I want to lose control. I want to let go. I want to be soulless and evil, but I can't.
@GrayInside "Fuck this shit." I focus on his brain, visualizing the blood vessels in it and cut them off, watching as he falls unconscious.-
@GrayInside I lay him on the floor, and I want to kick him. I want to hurt him because I'm pissed off. "I should lock you up somewhere."
@GrayInside "Why are you here, Gabriel? Do I need to beat you again? I should. I've had the worst 2 days in my life. My life!" I poke him.-
@GrayInside hard in the forehead. "My life fucking sucks, and you want me to save you again, don't you? Well guess what? Screw you."
@GrayInside "Oh the hell you did not just bite me you stupid little shit." My power wraps around him again, and I smash him into the far-
@GrayInside wall. Then I take a deep breath. "Not here. This is my home. I won't have my home sullied like you did my shop."
@GrayInside "My life is shit. I don't want you here." I grab him by the scruff of the neck. "I should kill you."
@FutureBoyScout I don't answer him at first. I can't have him. I can't have either of them. "I hung up because I was done talking to you."
@GrayInside I port him to a mental ward. I know the place. I spent a little time there myself, hunting for specials. Power can drive a -
@GrayInside person crazy. I'm holding him the hair, dragging him along with me. I snatch a straight jacket along the way and force him -
@GrayInside into it. Then I shove him into a padded cell. "Have a nice stay. Don't call me. I'll call you."
@FutureBoyScout Christ I'm suicidal. I know what the feels like. I've been there before. "I talked to Gabe today. He hates me. You hate me.-
@FutureBoyScout He thinks I'm a selfish maniacal bastard because I want it all. But that is me isn't it? I want it all. When I told you -
@FutureBoyScout about my other Peter, I didn't tell you that it was a threesome, did I?"
@GrayInside I grab his face in both hands and twist, snapping his neck, dropping him onto the cushioned floor. "Well you'll heal when --
@GrayInside turns your head on straight. Until then, enjoy your nap." I lock the door on my way out and port home.
@FutureBoyScout "If I froze myself solid and fell from here, do you think I'd come back? I mean isn't there a point where the pieces are -
@FutureBoyScout too small?" I'm not saying it to get attention. It's a logical question. "Probably not though. You lived through worse."
@FutureBoyScout "I can't stand being hated. To think I used to get off on it. I wish I never learned how to love anyone." A bitter laugh-
@FutureBoyScout slips out. "Well I wish I never learned how to fuck up love. It was better when no one else mattered."
@FutureBoyScout "I destroy everything." I can't look at him, so I pull away to walk to the other side of the roof. "Everyone. That's why -
@FutureBoyScout they left me. Claire was jealous of Peter. He was stupid, but I loved him. It got uglier and uglier. She did everything she-
@FutureBoyScout could to make sure that he wasn't around. Made sure I was alone. I can't handle being alone. I was going to tell you about-
@FutureBoyScout Gabriel. I was, but we kept getting distracted by EMT and Gray. Then we'd start... and I never got to tell you. I've never-
@FutureBoyScout cheated on him before. Never cheated on anyone, but I was afraid he wasn't coming back." I'm trembling so hard my teeth are-
@FutureBoyScout chattering, and I can't breathe.
@FutureBoyScout It's like an inferno inside. I'm too tired to fight him when he makes me sit down. I draw my legs up onto the couch and -
@FutureBoyScout press into the corner of it. I've lost my mind. I know that. The last time I felt like this I lost myself. "I would have-
@FutureBoyScout wanted you no matter what. I did the moment I saw you."
@FutureBoyScout "Should have waited for Gabriel to come home, then I could have asked him. Gotten him used to the idea." My nose is snotty.-
@FutureBoyScout "Last time I was this guilty I became Sylar, Peter. I couldn't take it, and I killed Gabriel." I tap my forehead. "The Gabe-
@FutureBoyScout in me. He went to sleep, and I never let him wake up. There are pieces of him. I'm pretty much integrated now, but I'm -
@FutureBoyScout afraid to sleep. Afraid of who'll be in the mirror when I wake up. What if I'm a killer again? What if I try to hurt you?"
@FutureBoyScout "Promise me that if I get lost that you'll do it. I made Gabe promise it too, and I promised to do the same for him." Want-
@FutureBoyScout to curl up with him so badly, but I won't. "So tired. So hungry."
@FutureBoyScout "I don't know how to fix it. I broke us." I lean against him for a few moments. "Don't worry. Most people still think --
@FutureBoyScout you're a massive prick. I should go to bed. I haven't slept yet. You should go home. EMT will think I killed you or worse."
@FutureBoyScout "It'd be better if I was alone. Go home." I put my hand on his chest. I wish I could touch him without the clothes. "I do-
@FutureBoyScout wish you could stay. I love you."