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thewatchmaker
thewatchmakerThe changes seem to be sticking. I'm in control of my moods and most of my thoughts. Occasionally things jar the calm I've wrapped my soul in, but I am doing my best to live one day at a time. It's not as if there's a support group for serial killers like AA. If there was who would be there besides me? Dexter Morgan? Certainly not Hannibal Letcher, he’s as proud of his work as Sylar is.
It’s helped to think of him as a separate entity. I don’t absolve myself of what I’ve done. I’m the one who let him take control, but I will not let it happen again. The hunger seems to be at rest. As long as I keep my temper in check, I should be all right.
Claire has forgiven me. We talk a lot. She is one of the few people I’m comfortable with, and I don’t know why. What I did to her was horrible. It would have been kinder if she could have died, but hopefully with time she’ll get better.
Angela is treating me like her son. I wish it was true. The woman fascinates me just by walking into a room. Her power and grace, she should have been my mother. She’s being so nice to me that it makes Sylar twitch under my skin. I don’t trust her as far as a hamster can throw her. I’m not stupid, but I do love the attention she is giving me.
Elle has come back into my life. She’s as complicated as I am, alone and broken. She needs me which isn’t something I’m not used to at all. It’s good to be needed and wanted, but I fear her instability might throw me back off balance too.
I’ve moved into a new loft in Manhattan. I can’t stand to be near the clock shop or my old apartment. They hold too many memories. Sometimes I wish someone could make me forget.
It’s helped to think of him as a separate entity. I don’t absolve myself of what I’ve done. I’m the one who let him take control, but I will not let it happen again. The hunger seems to be at rest. As long as I keep my temper in check, I should be all right.
Claire has forgiven me. We talk a lot. She is one of the few people I’m comfortable with, and I don’t know why. What I did to her was horrible. It would have been kinder if she could have died, but hopefully with time she’ll get better.
Angela is treating me like her son. I wish it was true. The woman fascinates me just by walking into a room. Her power and grace, she should have been my mother. She’s being so nice to me that it makes Sylar twitch under my skin. I don’t trust her as far as a hamster can throw her. I’m not stupid, but I do love the attention she is giving me.
Elle has come back into my life. She’s as complicated as I am, alone and broken. She needs me which isn’t something I’m not used to at all. It’s good to be needed and wanted, but I fear her instability might throw me back off balance too.
I’ve moved into a new loft in Manhattan. I can’t stand to be near the clock shop or my old apartment. They hold too many memories. Sometimes I wish someone could make me forget.
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