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I don’t remember the last time I wrote here. Things have been complicated. The constant attention at the Company was wearing me thin. All of those people needing bits and pieces of me, clamoring for my attention and praise. Their emotions hitting the walls I put on my psyche like one tsunami after another. Finally I reached a breaking point. I had to get out of there or I’d start killing them. Mass murder on the jobsite isn’t good for morale, and I sure as hell don’t want to spend another night on Level 5 or wherever they’d put me…
Home I went where Bennet and Peter took care of me. Being with her at my most vulnerable is so easy. She’s seen the good in me, the bad and in the horrible. She doesn’t judge me. She loves me monster and all. It’s not blind devotion either. She’s not stupidly besotted with me, so she forgives my darker nature; she loves me as I love her.
Peter is amazing. This Peter is at any rate. Who knew this incredibly good soul could become someone so important to me? I love him. I’d do anything to protect him just as I would Bennet. He helped pull me out of the darkness when those unwanted emotions were drowning me.
I wanted to hurt him, hurt someone, cause pain to find me amid all the emotional stew. He would have let me too because he knew it would help me. But one look into those bright brown eyes, and I lost the fire to destroy.
How can a monster like me love two people so much?
Home I went where Bennet and Peter took care of me. Being with her at my most vulnerable is so easy. She’s seen the good in me, the bad and in the horrible. She doesn’t judge me. She loves me monster and all. It’s not blind devotion either. She’s not stupidly besotted with me, so she forgives my darker nature; she loves me as I love her.
Peter is amazing. This Peter is at any rate. Who knew this incredibly good soul could become someone so important to me? I love him. I’d do anything to protect him just as I would Bennet. He helped pull me out of the darkness when those unwanted emotions were drowning me.
I wanted to hurt him, hurt someone, cause pain to find me amid all the emotional stew. He would have let me too because he knew it would help me. But one look into those bright brown eyes, and I lost the fire to destroy.
How can a monster like me love two people so much?
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